Epiphany

  • Y.O.L.O- An acronym for You Only Live Once. Created and popularized by rapper Drake in 2011.
  • M.F.W.T.D-An acronym for Memories Fade, Write Them Down. Created and never popularized in 2017 by Arianne Jackson.

I have never been one to sit and write out my feelings in a diary, though I have always loved to write. I owned plenty of diary’s and journals as a kid but could never seem to fill the pages. Unlike my younger sister Vannessa (who also enjoy’s writing), who would completely cover her diary page’s front to back. (Yes, you read that correctly. I secretly read ALL my sisters deep dark secrets. What can I say, I’m nosy) Vannessa’s Diary resembled a melodramatic teenage girl with a voice over in a kid’s television show. Each entry would begin with a sweet “Dear Diary” and continue into descriptive detail of any given day, how she felt about the events that occurred, and how that would affect her in the upcoming days.  Vannessa wrote as if the diary was her best friend. My diaries, however, sounded like this: “Today was fun, I loved it. Today I…etc.”  or “Today was bad…etc.”  By comparison one may conclude that my sister had more depth than me.  It wasn’t until recently that I realized my diaries were not a lack of depth, just a unique perspective.

While my sister used her diary to vent and work though her emotions, I used mine as a time capsule. I have always been an “enjoy the moments, because they are fleeting” type of thinker and this is shown quit well in my old diary entries. I felt it more important to capture a specific date and time that would never happen again than to express an emotion that I am sure I will experience many times in my future (though I’m sure to different extents).  This brings me to today. For so many reasons I feel like my 20’s have been my most awkward years. Age 20 to present have been my years of really coming into my own. My choice in clothing has changed (but not much). My goals have dramatically changed, and I am noticing that so many of the sayings I would hear growing up, but never put much thought into, are suddenly making perfect sense.

Like I said, I have never been one to complete a journal or to sit and write out my feelings in a diary. However, I do realize that Memories Fade, and it would be smart to Write Them Down. I started a blog in hopes that one day I will get married, have children, and when those children turn 20 they can read this and realize, if they feel like being a young adult is difficult, they are not alone. If I am not able to marry, have children, or finish this, maybe it will just be something for my friends and family to remember me by. Maybe I will live till age 100 (God willing) and I can look back and remember the small moments that made me, me. Regardless of what ever is to come of this page, it’s fun to remember and write down all the epiphanies that have made me feel like I am slowly but surely becoming an adult.

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